Life after....... Whaat???

It has been quite long since I updated my blog. I’ve three drafts. But not even one of them finished. So I’m making an excuse “ Didn’t find time” a usual one which I make to fool others but I know that I cant fool myself.

This blog is about a unique experience of mine. I work in a software firm. One fine Friday evening when I reached home after her work, I found that nobody was recognizing me. I was perplexed. “What is happening” I yelled. But no one was bothered. I went to my room and to my utter shock found a garlanded photograph of mine. Am I dead??

Ohhh….. I fainted. People who are dead also lose consciousness. That was a new piece of information.

Somebody sprinkled water on my face and I gained myself back. “ Life after death”, I sighed.

I was greeted by familiar faces. I was relieved that I’m not alone. I found an old lady who used to live in my neighborhood, she was plucking flowers. She said that I’m in a place which is not in heaven or hell, rather a threshold to both. I decided to call it a “No man’s land”, even though I’m no longer a human being. “ Kuch aadaten aisi hoti hai ki usse badalna mushhkil hothi hai”.

It’s a place where you would be sent if you had done some minor sins and after a “training” period , I would be made permanent in heaven. This period would depend on the intensity of sins I’d committed. And another thing was that I’m supposed to continue what I’d been doing in my mortal life.

So I have to work in my company. A development center at “No man’s land” ???? I suddenly felt a kind of pride which I had not at all felt when I was alive.

The very next “day” at “No man’s land” I went to office. And my seat… Oh that’s similar to the one which I’d when I was alive… Ahh.. I was more than happy and started working. The code in which I was supposed to fix the bug received me when I unlocked my PC. As usual I concentrated on my work. Yeaaah, I fixed the bug…. I shouted. The silence was broken .

I uttered, "Life after...." Heard a lour roar... " WHAT???"

I found all my colleagues staring at me as woke up from my dream. I was sitting in my seat , staring at the monitor with my mind wandering all over ……

To those who read this blog, can you can relate yourself to me ?????

Mind ??? !!!!

The most complex creation of God, i guess is human mind. Well, its location is still debated on. Wherever be it, it is perfect. What i feel is that mind has something to do with brain and its activities. Then what about heart? Is it not related to mind? Heart is an organ which pumps blood. Since many sensations and emotions are controlled by mind, i go by mind-brain connection.

Man is a dynamic system and human mind is an ECU(Emotional Control Unit),definitely closed loop. Comparing man with a control system, stable nature of man is the output. Inputs, he receive from surroundings.They may or may not disturb his stability. The output will definitely depend on the power of his ECU. And finally,the plant is man himself.

Human mind has been a topic of research since times unknown. But the percentage of success in knowing it, is very small. It's always good to try out before giving an authentic opinion. So i've decided to make myself the specimen for my experiment to know my mind.

My experiments with my mind....

I believe that i'm a confident person. This is because i can control my mind or.... is it the other way round?? I'm under my mind's control??? Here starts the confusion... What is the difference from me and my mind?? What is conscience then? I'm really going out of the track. This is too complex " Mere bas ki baat nahin"..

Whatever be it... My strength is my confidence. If at all, something happens, even the slightest feeling of a confidence leak can set me turbulent. And i may react unpredictably.

I tried stressing myself,then tried taking every thing lightly , and finally got myself utterly confused. Again same thought " Yeh zaroor mere bas ki baat nahin".

Making myself a specimen can make me insane... So i'm going to do a less risky business that is find a specimen from around me

Waiting for the specimen......

Thoughts on the new year day.....

Today is Jan 1st 2007 and i have a bag full of resolutions. But what is unpredictable is that how much i'll stick to my resolutions... My New Year wishes to all

This is prompting me to think of why people make resolutions. Ultimate answer is u'd like to have a change. But change.., it is difficult.

For a person , who has a set of self formulated rules and convictions, even though he would love to change certain things, his ego would not let him change. So it needs courage and some humility too. I wish all those who made New Year resolutions best wishes to stick to their resolutions .

Now for those who havent made any NY resolutions, decisions for changing or correcting yourself can be made at any time. If you feel like correcting anytime,just do it.

Since New Year has come and is on, slowly the discussions about resolutions will fade, and so is my blog on resolutions...

Resolutions.......

Well, New Year time is reslolutions time too.. But I guess if there is somebody, who is serious about not only making resolutions, but sees that they are being excecuted for the entire year with the same vigour, with which they were made.

There might be people, who think that why New Year is the only time where resolutions come into picture. But it is a fact that it is in this season where serious discussions on resolutions happen....

I have been making resolutions every new year for about 5 years , and every time I write my resolution on the Jan1 page of my diary. This year 2006 was no different. I make atleast two resolutions every year. One which is somewhat serious ,regarding changing something in me which I dont like after a thorough review i conduct on myself. And others ....oops they are some weird and funky things....

Yesteday,when I was turning the pages of my diary, my eyes got struck in the Jan 1 2006 page. Wow this was my resolution!!! I dont want this to happen next year also......

This year has left me dry..... I'm in a confusion about what resolution to make for the year 2007...

While I was typing down my thoughts on this hot wednsday afternoon, ah.... I got my resolution number1 for 2007...

I'll keep blog updated

I'll keep on making resolutions nd penning them down... Ah I have 4 more days.........